looking back

if u look at my profile u will see that i wrote i am a final year student of chemical engineering and bla bla bla :)

i am wearing this white tee with red collar and smiling . I was at home after finishing ma 3rd year and was happy. I dont know why !! maybe because i was with ma parents , my brother who is growing very fast, my sister who will always keep on talking :)

i have shown ma industry as a student and my hometown to be yamnanagar , delhi , assam and see where i am now ..

working in ITC FOODS DIVISION in nagpur , maharashtra.. today is 14.10.2011 and i am trying to look backwards to know what have i missed in ma whole life..

had it been good that i didnt do medical ? maybe good because i knew my real self....what i liked most, what i hated most..but still unsure as to what i should do .... just going round and round , like when i was a kid and stopping by to see the world revolve .. ha h aha

it was so much fun !!

Also i remember how deuta (DAD) would carry me and run to catch the bus.. that was the most amazing moment because i would love to feel the gush of wind in ma face. We didnt have any vehicle at that time... no car , no bike , no scooter.... only running would make me feel the gush of wind...i used to forget my school bag always , while always remembering my pink double boxed tiffin. i used to play drums on it. i liked it very much because mom would make delicious food and i would just think about the recess time and oops !! the bag has been left out in the bus :)

so much to say , i will continue after a while...

to my friend on his birthday

on this birthday i will wish u on behalf of :

1.the street where we used to play cricket

2.the parks where we enjoyed to fullest

3.the walls of school, who supported us during our punishment

4.the school playground, where we coudnt make the ball reachthe half line, but dont know when time passed and the ball started reaching the quarters

5.the streetlight post who supported us learning cycle and sitting on it.

6.the recess, when we would steal each others tiffin (its loot actually)

7.the corridor, where the voices of our ignorant chuckles could still be heard.

and last but not the least from myself.....happy bday buddy .. miss u :)

time travel on phone....

A page from my friend’s diary……….

She is my best friend, maybe because we share common thoughts and I love her a lot. She is the apple of my eye. She was at her home and I was chatting with her on phone from my college. I asked her to look at the night sky.

“it is beautiful, especially because there is a powercut in Delhi..”, she said.

“Well here there is electricity and I am talking to you, so , I could imagine nothing other than being with you and holding your hand. And…. Hey…. Where are u lost?”

Then she started,

“ when I was a child , I used to go to my village somewhere in Haryana I don’t remember now. I loved my granny very much, so I used to be with her during the entire summer vacation. In the morning granny used to feed the pigeons cereals and I used to have fun with them too. After that I would make my granny bride. Used to comb her hair, make her wear clothes and put different lipsticks. It was fun… are u listening?”

“I am very much with you sweetie. Just trying to imagine things alonwith. Carry on sugar..”

“ yeah better be attentive.” She smiles

“ I don’t remember many instances like this because I was a kid, but tonight this darkness has brought an instance to my mind. It was a hot summer night. There was no moon and thus the sky was bright with twinkling stars. I was lay down on my mom’s lap and she was fanning me. I looked at the stars and tried to speak to them. Mom , dad and granny were having a conversation which was not of my interest. I was staring at the shining stars and drowned into sleep. So good it was, to be kid , to have no tensions of any kind. Isn’t it? And the sky it was so clear at that time. Nw pollution has enveloped the sky with dust and today I can hardly see any stars.”

Very true sweetie. Come to Assam sometime. I will show you the stars. It is still clear there. Don’t know till when, but for now it is clear..”

So what are you planning to do next ?

“ me? i…..”

And the conversation lasted for another hour, and finally her battery died. Then I switched off my lights, and thought how good it was when I was a kid and used to visit my village. Used to go on cycle to the village centre with my uncle and he used to buy me a toffee everytime. Now demands have increased. Instead of toffee kids want chocolate , want to goto movies and water park in summer vacations instead of their village. Living in city has become a status, hardly any relatives are visited except on some need or in family get togethers where no one leaves a stone unturned to show their pompousness.

Any how life is long . tomorrow morning again I have to start a new day, forgetting all the sorrows and dejection of yesterday. Because everyone has the right to live.

goodnight

really nice song by cold play
VIVA LA VIDA---(AND THE MUSIC IS MESMERISING)

I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing:
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"

One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never
Never an honest word
And that was when I ruled the world

It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in.
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn't believe what I'd become

Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh who would ever want to be king?

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world

wow!

WOW!

Is this what you say when u see something wonderful? Perhaps yes. And so do i. and maybe million others do the same as like you do. What is wonderful actually?

It’s something which makes you wonder but is that so easy to describe? May be not because its an adjective. How do u define truth ? or god, or million other words like these? We cannot simply. It’s a matter of ones perspective. But something wonderful is something which makes u gasp. Telephone when it was invented , it was wonderful, it was something which people would have never imagined upon but look at it now. Its so common that no one would wonder at it except some( and those are the people with high imaginations who wants to know how it really works).

“Wonderful is something which brings change.”

It may bring change to someones heart. If we see some sight or some sculpture or anything which brings happiness to us we wonder and we say; “WOW!”

If someone is bringing good change to this world which is affecting us or doing something different it is wonderful to us.

Everyone is capable of doing something good. Everone of us can make someone smile. It may not affect the world but it can surely bring smile to ur elatives or parents or ur best friend or most importantly it may bring smile to nobody but just u urself. That’s wonderful and we can say wow to ourself.

Life doesn’t depend on whether you can carry out your dreams or not but how you can be making your work the best so that it becomes someone else’s dream.

So friends. Wow. We are great. We just need to know what we can be great at.

i wrote

I wrote your name on a paper but by an accident I threw it away
I wrote your name on m hand but I washed it the next day
I wrote your name in the sand but the waves washed it away
I wrote your name in my heart and forever it will stay
Hanging on your kiss
feeling for your touch
living on your love
its all too much
your love is so amazing
your the best thing in my life

It only took a minute, to let you in my life
It only took a minute, for me to realize
It only took a minute, and i knew just what to do
It only to a minute to fall in love with you

I don't know how to say this
So I'll just say it straight up
I Love you more then words could say
your all I got

I swear by the moon and the stars in the sky I'll be there...
I swear like the shadow that's by your side, I'll be there...
For better or worse till death do us part...
I'll love you with every beat of my heart, I swear...

I hate the fact that I let you have so much control over me,
with every sweet word you say; it melts me into a puddle of vulnerability. With every hug you give me, you make my knees buckle
and every time you kiss me, my heart begins to race,
as much as I hate being wrapped around your little finger,
I love being in love with you.

I will love you till forever
until death do us part
we'll be together.

Give me your hand and I'll try to understand,
I love you, so I can't let you go
ain't nothing wrong with having someone to hold.

I find that in your arms, I feel safe.
I find that in your mind, I feel wanted.
I find that in your eyes, I feel me.
I find that in your heart, I feel love.

You are my everything There's nothing your Love won't bring
My life is yours alone. The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through when nothing else will do
Every night I pray on bended knee that you will always be…
My everything...

Your still the one . . .
Your still the one I run to
The one that I belong to. . .
Still the one I want for life,
Your still the one that I love,
The only one I dream of
Your still the one I kiss goodnight...
I'm so glad we made it.
Look how far we've come my baby

If a day should go by without me saying I love you,
may never a day go by with out you knowing I do.

It's not my fault if I can't help looking at you.
It's not my fault if I can't stop calling you.
It's not my fault that I like you.
My only mistake is falling so much in love with you.

Sometimes is when I see you
Often is when I dream of you
Daily is when I talk to you
Always is when I think of you
Never is when I'll stop caring for you...
Special is how I define you
Perfect is how I see you
Honestly is how I speak to you
Dearly is how I miss you
Truly is how I love you...

I do swear that I'll always be there
I'd give anything and everything I will always care
through weakness and strength happiness & sorrow
for better or for worse I will love you
with every beat of my heart

For someone i care for ....TIMON

IF I COULD CATCH RAINBOW

I WOULD DO IT JUST FOR NOW

AND SHARE WITH YOU ITS BEAUTY

ON THE DAY YOU ARE FILLING BLUE

IF I COULD I WOULD BUILD A MOUNTAIN

YOU COULD CALL YOUR VERY OWN

A PLACE TO FIND SERENITY

A PLACE ALONE

IF I COULD TAKE YOUR TROUBLES

I WOULD TOSS THEM IN SEA

BUT ALL THESE THINGS I AM finding

ARE IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME

I CANNOT BUILD A MOUNTAIN

OR CATCH A RAINBOW FAIR

BUT LET ME BE WHAT I KNOW BEST

A FRIEND THATS ALWAYS THERE

AND A LOVE THAT WILL NEVER DISAPPEAR